It is hard to admit when we are in pain that we just want it to stop.
We don’t care about the consequences, all we care about is stopping the pain.
Perhaps the pain is seeing a loved one dying, and we just want it to be over.
Perhaps the pain is seeing our own deterioration, and we just want to end.
Perhaps the pain is seeing someone else destroy themselves, and we can’t take it anymore.
It’s normal and human to want it to end.
The hard part is accepting how we feel about it without judging ourselves.
It is easy to fall into guilt, shame, and self-loathing over how we feel.
Yet those emotions do not serve us, and indeed, harm us.
What must we do to accept that we are human and we it is all right to want the pain to stop?
It doesn’t mean we have to act on it.
It doesn’t mean we have to do something about it.
It just means that we are in pain and we want it to stop.
Can we learn to forgive ourselves for that desire?
Can we learn to let go of the guilt and shame and be gentler to ourselves?
Can we learn to love ourselves enough that we forgive ourselves in spite of how we feel?
~ Sam Liebowitz, The Conscious Consultant